Imperfect much?
I always feel like this, Like I have no Place to be or no Life to live. The shoe never seem’s to fit my foot, No one is ever happy with my efforts and the gifts in life seem to never have been dropped into my hands. I was looking at it today very hard as I started work after getting there 3 mintues late, Oh no 3 MINUTES! But oh well, I guess everyone feel’s like this in life sometime or another, but just I tend to feel it everyday almost. You screwed this up and your an idoit and what are you stupid?! These tend to be the most common one’s I hear, but I say fuck you! lol… Ahh that felt better, If EVER you feel this way and people tell you your never good at anything then just think of the reasons why they had to point it out? I say people who fuss over over peoples mistakes or stuff up’s are wankers who think they are god’s gift to life, grow the fuck up!
Anyhow Moving on I had an ok day at work, It was a easy day but still overly stressful and hard as always, I don’t have any exciting news apart from the fact yet another lady has told me they love me! Whaaaa! I mean I’ve never met this lady and she has been someone I have spoken to on myspace and msn for years now, then BAM she hearts me? I duno, but I have to add her to the collection of ladies who do love me now, thats 3 now counting. I mean It’s funny when it happens as all I have ever wanted was to be loved just as much as I have wanted to love someone, but to me I always feel you can maybe love someones persona but never really is it a full loving of them and who they are, So why say your in love with them? I duno, I wasn’t awful to her at all infact I was very flattered by it and it made my day a lot better with my uber smiles of knowing someone enjoy’s who I am. But yeah I just didn’t have an answer for her, I mean she seems really nice but I would really need to meet her before going anywhere with it.
Anyhow enough dribbling about love and junk, The rest of my day was well and I think today I have a bit of a crush on someone, I duno and I could never bring myself to say ”Hey I like you”, but yeah i’ll just ponder along and continue to see if I can use my charmming ways to the max lol. Um then as usual I just rab once the clock hit 5pm, ran to my car and took off as though work was never apart of my day! Yay on the way home I saw the new BMW 3 series, mmm gawd they have a good body line, but why is it always ladies driving BMW’s now? Has BMW finally lost its usual drivers of half growen men who buy a BMW but never know anything about them? Where have these men gone I wonder… And then Ahh i see now, seeing the man I was just describing in a brand new alfa… Bahh who cares lol. Then I came home and Im well knackered and tired as! bye for now : )
